REFLECTION ESSAY 

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Truthfully, I felt that this semester was the hardest I had to go through. I had a rough start from the very beginning, which was project 2, the conceptual model. For the concept model itself, it wasn’t until the night of submission that I had an idea to work with, and I just went with the flow from there on, with only a few hours left before submission. It felt very nervewracking and stressful because I was worried I couldn’t come up with at least something on the day of submission. I was grateful enough to be able to produce my model, even though it didn’t really meet my expectation, nonetheless, it could’ve been worse but I managed to make it through!

 

Then came the final project, which really, really tested me, emotionally and mentally. Since this is the first sem that we learn to develop a space from our concept, I find it very challenging and mind-boggling. (maybe it’s just me and my slow brain) I spent so much of my time redoing my spatial programming, and never really thought about the design and the details of the interior for my space. My weakness was I didn’t know how to bring ahead the concept of “batu seremban” into the space. There were days where I would spend the whole day in front of the laptop and came up with zero progress. I think I was pretty much demotivated from this point till the end. I tried so hard and I’ve faced numerous breakdowns just this sem only. (very dramatic but its da truth) this was the most looked forward part of the design subject for me, but I didn’t manage to give my best, which was very disappointing, but I’m glad I made it to the review day.

 

I received a lot of useful feedback from the externals that day. And for the first time, I didn’t feel down or sad form the comments they gave me, even though it all meant that my work was far from being good enough. “you didn’t bring the concept of your batu seremban well enough into your space” and I agree very much to that. I’m also happy they gave me a lot of comments because now I know what I should focus more on for the upcoming projects for next semester. Although I wish had done better, but I understand that all of the ups and downs I face today are part of the learning process. 

 

But it wasn’t all bad days, I had good lecturers to guide me as well from the start, Ms Aida and Sir Imran. If it wasn’t for them, my situation would’ve/ could've been even worse. All the tutorials and lectures were very helpful for me! thank you, lecturers :)

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